Society has always been good at playing with each-others mind set on defying what is and isn't pretty, or what should be accepted . Me being a size 18 CAD knows that. But it's kind of funny because people put me in a category within the plus size categories and that is ,''thick''. Some say that there is a difference between ''Thick'' and ''Fat''. To some people Thick is the shape of an hour glass ,like  Kim Kardasian . To others ''fat'' is someone who has more of a round shape, for example , Gabourey Sidibe ( who played in the movie Precious). Why is that ? For some reason being thick is more acceptable in the plus size world then being fat.



 In the past 5 years, my body has changed dramatically . I remember the days when I use to be a size 11 in jeans. And I'm not blaming anyone other than myself. I let myself get carried away for multiple reason. Some are justifiable  and some aren't. And I acknowledge that but even 10 ,20 or 100 pounds more no one else should have the right to tell me what is and isn't beautiful.


 As the years went by I saw how difficult it was to find affordable, cute clothes. I think when designers design plus size they think , old granny drapes! Not even my grandmother would put those on just because of how ugly they look . Like c'mon I know we got a bit more meat but y'all be exaggerating. It got to me at a point when my friends and I went shopping and I never used to find that many clothes because it was made for flat chested and none for curvy women. And it use to hurt me. Like I said USED TOO. I've learned to accept who the new me is and to embrace it. I still would like to lose some weight but not for society or my family or friends. But for the person I have to live with everyday...Myself.


I guess all this was to say,YOU know who you are. And YOU should rock your body they way YOU feel is right. Because at the end of the day society isn't living your life. There just on the outside looking at you.


~Bianca ❤